Surrendering is Confusing

This weekend I went to a wonderful night of worship at my church. I felt the Lord saying sweet things over me of who I am and what I am about. I am not my profession. I am HIS. I am His worshipper. I am here to worship and to glorify the Lord in doing work for His kingdom. That was very liberating since I am in this job-identity-less state. I am desperate for a job, and would really love to hear from my church but I still haven't heard back. I have no idea what the Lord wants me to do with this time but I am trying just to run back to Him. I don't know where else to apply either - it seems to be all about who I know and not what I know. Interesting. 

Still deep in book reading. I'm reading "Saying Yes" by Cindy West who addresses the issue of art and the church. Very challenging for me as an "artist" but great. I'm also reading "The Shack" and a book about Bathsheba by Francine Rivers.  And Joshua. 

I have been blessed with some great people here - to talk to, be fun with, and pray with, it's been really great. I've been overwhelmed. 

It seems like all around me the Lord is working great things. My brother just got a great part time job, my friends just had a beautiful baby boy, my sister's boyfriend gets to go back to work, my sister is close to having a job for the spring, and on and on... and my heart is to celebrate those things with them, but am wondering what the Lord is doing with and in me and why I am still where I am. 

Sorry for the very heavy post. 

So, to make up for it, here are some fun things that have happened or are coming up: 

I'm going to DC for halloween and the election!

I played football last night with some new friends. 

My brother and I go get coffee together and it's great. We pretend we're going to winchestertonville. 

I LOVE worshipping. 

I make a mean homemade pizza.

I am going to a new sunday school next week that I'm really excited about. 

We almost got to the top of the peak. Going to the top of a 14er hopefully will happen soon. 

I am GLAD I'm in Colorado.