It don't mean a thing...

If it ain't got that swing. I am a little tall.  5'8". Not super duper tall, but tall enough that one of my favorite roommates could wear my capris as pants. 

Last night I went swing dancing after church. I danced with four memorable dancers. All great guys, only one of them reaching 6'0". That should be fine, but when they're trying to get your head under their armpit for the pretzel it can be kind of traumatizing. There's also one move where they grab your hips and you grab their wrists and they throw you up in the air - I just felt huge and tall. One guy was trying a move he was kind of new at and we kind of stopped mid way - he was like, "I don't know how to do this with someone so tall." So, we gave up on that one.  They were all great about it, and it probably wasn't really an issue. I don't define myself by my height, but it was a bit of a detriment when dancing. I just wanted to feel cute and little. So, what did I do about it? This morning I had my brother, a proud 6'3", dance with me. I felt small. Thanks Dan. 

Surrendering is Confusing

This weekend I went to a wonderful night of worship at my church. I felt the Lord saying sweet things over me of who I am and what I am about. I am not my profession. I am HIS. I am His worshipper. I am here to worship and to glorify the Lord in doing work for His kingdom. That was very liberating since I am in this job-identity-less state. I am desperate for a job, and would really love to hear from my church but I still haven't heard back. I have no idea what the Lord wants me to do with this time but I am trying just to run back to Him. I don't know where else to apply either - it seems to be all about who I know and not what I know. Interesting. 

Still deep in book reading. I'm reading "Saying Yes" by Cindy West who addresses the issue of art and the church. Very challenging for me as an "artist" but great. I'm also reading "The Shack" and a book about Bathsheba by Francine Rivers.  And Joshua. 

I have been blessed with some great people here - to talk to, be fun with, and pray with, it's been really great. I've been overwhelmed. 

It seems like all around me the Lord is working great things. My brother just got a great part time job, my friends just had a beautiful baby boy, my sister's boyfriend gets to go back to work, my sister is close to having a job for the spring, and on and on... and my heart is to celebrate those things with them, but am wondering what the Lord is doing with and in me and why I am still where I am. 

Sorry for the very heavy post. 

So, to make up for it, here are some fun things that have happened or are coming up: 

I'm going to DC for halloween and the election!

I played football last night with some new friends. 

My brother and I go get coffee together and it's great. We pretend we're going to winchestertonville. 

I LOVE worshipping. 

I make a mean homemade pizza.

I am going to a new sunday school next week that I'm really excited about. 

We almost got to the top of the peak. Going to the top of a 14er hopefully will happen soon. 

I am GLAD I'm in Colorado.